Oops I did it again.

Yep, I bought another "cleanse" book. So embarrassing!

It's like Anne Lamott with her bathroom scales. Buying one, stepping on it, hating it for telling her how to feel, calling it a petty tyrant, taking it down to the Goodwill and saying,Hey guys. Got another scale for ya. 

I haven't done this in a long time. I was in Oakland, the weather was glorious, especially for late January. I was working outside (!!!) and I started to believe in spring again.

Suddenly I was in the mood for lighter food! In my moment of restored optimism and faith that I would soon want to eat something other than beef with pork, I bought this book about juice and salad and "cleansing."

Am I going to get a juicer? I am not. Am I going to cook out of this book? Maybe a salad. Am I going on a cleanse? HELL NO, if past performance and my contempt of diets are any indication.

But I lost my mind and bought this near-useless book. Ugh, what is my lesson?!

Just this: Buying another cleanse book and giving it to Goodwill is not a big deal. It is a slip, yes. A bit of backsliding and a waste of $20. I listened to a thought that I've been able to ignore in the past (ooooh, buy me!) and this time didn't ignore it.

Which matters nothing.I am not preserving a shining record.I do not care about being perfectnotbecause it's impossible, but becausebeing perfect is IRRELEVANT to the project of overall project of doing my best to keep important commitments.Like eating well and generously, and not going on stupid "cleanses," which, sidebar, the body doesn't actually require.

So it is, exactly, with that donut you had or that argument you had or that other little indulgence.All-or-nothing is a setup for unnecessary surrender."Perfection" is just a tool your bad habits use to get you to give up and live life their terrible way.

"Perfection" the idea is just poison. Throw it in the bin marked "irrelevant thoughts I can safely ignore forever" and carry on.

Max Daniels